Regrets

Last night as I sat in my rocks in the yard and was trying to dig them out along with all the weeds, I started thinking about regrets. I was thinking about how I regret putting them in. At first, when we killed the lawn over on the front south side of the house, rocks seemed like a great idea. We wouldn't have to water anything and it would be cheaper than cement. We'd save money in the long run. I had envisioned in my mind that it would be this beautiful place, and that we would have lots of beautiful plants. We even put down a high grade weed barrier. Well, the weed barrier has worked to an extent, when there are weeds there, they come up super easy because they can't get deep roots. But I have this mound of dirt in the middle of the rocks, that just looks horrible. It doesn't have water running to it, and I don't get out there frequently enough to water it. So, no matter how hard I try, they just die. And then the weeds around the dirt pile grow, and they grow into the rocks. And then I don't get to it, and the weeds become to much, that I just don't do anything about it. I don't remember ever being truly happy about the rocks and the way they turned out. I am beginning to regret putting them in. I wish we would have spend the extra money and put in cement and then we could have the basketball in front or even have a place for a camping trailer that we would someday love to have, but don't have a place for.

I can't say that I have many regrets in my life, I am very happy. I have a wonderful husband, and three amazing children. When I go and do music class, go to the park, the library, or any public place I realize how well behaved my children are. Daniel is such a great big brother to Jonathan. He has grown up so much this past year, and I can't believe he will be in kindergarten this year. I have no regrets when it comes to my family. I just love them so much, and they are such a blessing. I do regret that I haven't done a good job at staying close to some of my friends and family. I would love to have the time to see and visit with many of my friends each week. When I was in high school and college I thought that those friendships would last forever, and I will always have those friends, but it just seems that we aren't as close as I would like.

What are your regrets?